Regrets

Im lost. . . . its like, i do not have any purpose anymore.
No more morning training,
no more holiday training,
no more gym
The race ended fast for me.
I have never expected that to happen
I raced with an end in mind....
but today....
im still in a shocked state.
It's okay tho, cause i know i had given my best, no hard feeling
I had heard enough about living with no regrets...
its not that i have regrets,
its just probably luck wasnt on our side for my 1km race.
Luck just wasnt....
thats my only regret - foresight

Now thats its nearing the end of competition, im wish the C2- Nic and yao jie- the best
I'm proud of them, really

I miss the times when me joseph and jun yang would fight for 1st in our sets.
I clearly miss those times after training - the shag feeling.

I guess im just emotionally hit, oh who would understand?
Im starting to miss the team
I dun wan this to end
I miss more of the times with my team then the medal that was once our desire.
i finally understand wat is a team all about. . .
i finally know why my senior quit after his batch left
I did not regret joining canoeing

today, it just tells me how realistic the world is
so i guess medal isnt important to me anymore. . . .
Not anymore. . . .