"whats yours, will be yours" Mr Ang

I cant deceive myself anymore!

CANT TAKE IT!

WHY MUST IT BE ME?!?!?!?!?!

why of all times....on the race day itself.

why is it me? why? TELL ME WHY!?!?!?!?!?

i always had faith in my 1km race , its my pet event.

SO WHY MUST IT BE ON THAT DAY!? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?

I DUN WANT LUCK TO CONTROL ME

I HAVE ALWAYS BELIEVE IN HARDWORK

SO THAT LUCK IS OUT OF QUESTION

I know Joseph wants a medal

and the first race itself aready diminished his hope

I know Mr ang places high hopes on our k4

even at that point of time nic complained that Mr ang focused too much on k boaters

how can i not regret this....

I kinda felt lost. It's just too sudden
I know joseph also feel sian
JunYang is undefeated mentally,Questioning himself.
I understand cause i've been questioning myself since ytd....
BUT WTF U TELL ME NO REGRETS?!?!?!
i can tell that 3 of us pia with each other and die together, but u? STUDY!
I always believe in PIORITY.
BUT Y STUDY AT THAT PERIOD
In the past our piority is canoeing. NOW its studies.....understand?
I should have scream at u.
Well, i guess that didnt happen cause i regard u as my senseible good friend
Isnt progressing as a team have always been our goal as well?
its okay.... i have learned how to be tolerant n forgiving
so i guess its ok now
i dun wan to continue resenting the past, it will be a waste of time.
its over.
Blame it on reality, JC students have to study. and the team is not always perfect.
Thats reality,
Thats the way how life works, i guess.
At least i have a team i can rely on now.

Regrets

Im lost. . . . its like, i do not have any purpose anymore.
No more morning training,
no more holiday training,
no more gym
The race ended fast for me.
I have never expected that to happen
I raced with an end in mind....
but today....
im still in a shocked state.
It's okay tho, cause i know i had given my best, no hard feeling
I had heard enough about living with no regrets...
its not that i have regrets,
its just probably luck wasnt on our side for my 1km race.
Luck just wasnt....
thats my only regret - foresight

Now thats its nearing the end of competition, im wish the C2- Nic and yao jie- the best
I'm proud of them, really

I miss the times when me joseph and jun yang would fight for 1st in our sets.
I clearly miss those times after training - the shag feeling.

I guess im just emotionally hit, oh who would understand?
Im starting to miss the team
I dun wan this to end
I miss more of the times with my team then the medal that was once our desire.
i finally understand wat is a team all about. . .
i finally know why my senior quit after his batch left
I did not regret joining canoeing

today, it just tells me how realistic the world is
so i guess medal isnt important to me anymore. . . .
Not anymore. . . .

song bo

Yesterday's gym was wtf man.... had a taste of it. im sure next gym would be tougher of i roughy know my weights already. DIE DIE DIE!! better find new motivation ha!!!! And how the hell did Junyang have so much mind power man. stupid ass always draw first blood......
Everyone looking good now i guess....becoming a real senior now. Act like 1, talk like 1 and look like 1 =D
Today was spendid for the fact we had 20+ junior girls! hopefully the girls team wont shrink and hopefully It turns out that way- more girls. Fitness test is coming real soon and that Ah jie ran 8.32!! how in the world he improved so much?!?!?! gosh... cant him lap me man. or not i sure tio own in sports day!
STRESSSSSSSSS makes u good?