"whats yours, will be yours" Mr Ang

I cant deceive myself anymore!

CANT TAKE IT!

WHY MUST IT BE ME?!?!?!?!?!

why of all times....on the race day itself.

why is it me? why? TELL ME WHY!?!?!?!?!?

i always had faith in my 1km race , its my pet event.

SO WHY MUST IT BE ON THAT DAY!? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?

I DUN WANT LUCK TO CONTROL ME

I HAVE ALWAYS BELIEVE IN HARDWORK

SO THAT LUCK IS OUT OF QUESTION

I know Joseph wants a medal

and the first race itself aready diminished his hope

I know Mr ang places high hopes on our k4

even at that point of time nic complained that Mr ang focused too much on k boaters

how can i not regret this....

I kinda felt lost. It's just too sudden
I know joseph also feel sian
JunYang is undefeated mentally,Questioning himself.
I understand cause i've been questioning myself since ytd....
BUT WTF U TELL ME NO REGRETS?!?!?!
i can tell that 3 of us pia with each other and die together, but u? STUDY!
I always believe in PIORITY.
BUT Y STUDY AT THAT PERIOD
In the past our piority is canoeing. NOW its studies.....understand?
I should have scream at u.
Well, i guess that didnt happen cause i regard u as my senseible good friend
Isnt progressing as a team have always been our goal as well?
its okay.... i have learned how to be tolerant n forgiving
so i guess its ok now
i dun wan to continue resenting the past, it will be a waste of time.
its over.
Blame it on reality, JC students have to study. and the team is not always perfect.
Thats reality,
Thats the way how life works, i guess.
At least i have a team i can rely on now.

Regrets

Im lost. . . . its like, i do not have any purpose anymore.
No more morning training,
no more holiday training,
no more gym
The race ended fast for me.
I have never expected that to happen
I raced with an end in mind....
but today....
im still in a shocked state.
It's okay tho, cause i know i had given my best, no hard feeling
I had heard enough about living with no regrets...
its not that i have regrets,
its just probably luck wasnt on our side for my 1km race.
Luck just wasnt....
thats my only regret - foresight

Now thats its nearing the end of competition, im wish the C2- Nic and yao jie- the best
I'm proud of them, really

I miss the times when me joseph and jun yang would fight for 1st in our sets.
I clearly miss those times after training - the shag feeling.

I guess im just emotionally hit, oh who would understand?
Im starting to miss the team
I dun wan this to end
I miss more of the times with my team then the medal that was once our desire.
i finally understand wat is a team all about. . .
i finally know why my senior quit after his batch left
I did not regret joining canoeing

today, it just tells me how realistic the world is
so i guess medal isnt important to me anymore. . . .
Not anymore. . . .